Saturday, September 15, 2012

Thoughts on God, Gods, and who created him/her/them...


Was just reading this blog: <a href="http://camylleon.wordpress.com/2012/06/22/challenge-accepted/">Challenge Accepted.</a>. Had to comment on it. You guys know how rarely I comment on a blog post, so you know it's really struck a cord with me if I choose to comment. Here is my comment:


I've felt this way for a long time. Raised Christian, but than kept asking that annoying questions which other Christians hate: "Okay, so God created us and this universe, I can buy that, but who created God and the universe he lives in? And than, who created God's creator? And who created  God's creator's creator?" I was asking questions like this since I was old enough to talk and it really annoyed every adult to cross my path, and by the time I was a teenager I had church leaders attempting exorcisms on my claiming that my questions "against God" were a result of demon possession and being "a natural born witch" (when they called a person a witch, their meaning was that they were born with a demon in them in place of a human soul).

Well I was confused by the whole thing, me being a kid and not knowing any better, I just assumed the adults knew what they were talking about and spent many hours praying for forgiveness for my "sin" of having been born a witch, even though I did not have any idea what a witch even was!

On commands of priests and parents I read the Bible cover to cover 31 times by the time I had reached the age of 20 - they insisted it had answers, but the more I read it the more confused I became because every page was a contradiction of every other page. as a young adult I continued on this way, than in my 30's the bishop finally said I had to be excommunicated and shunned on grounds of witchcraft. My family, friends, relatives, parents, siblings, husband, every one I knew suddenly treated me as though I was dead (literally - they neither see me or hear me, act like I am invisible, will not acknowledge that I'm even there, and speak of me, even when I'm in the room, as though I was dead and buried years ago! Thus is the nature of shunning).

I had to completely build a new life for myself from scratch, and first thing I did was to look for a new church...at first I explored other Christian churches, but I continued to run into problems every time I asked "Yeah, but, who created God?"

So I started looking into non-Christian churches and had similar problems. Than one day I discovered witchcraft was a religion, which shocked me, because I had grown up believing witchcraft was along the lines of an illness you were born with (that's the way the church I was raised in taught it). So I figured, well, I was excommunicated on grounds of witchcraft, well, maybe I should look into this whole witchcraft thing and find out just exactly what it is.

I started with Wicca, but that wasn't for me, but looked into other Pagan faiths because it occurred to me that I was finding answers to questions here, specifically that while one god created life, other god existed to do other things. That was the answer I was looking for. One thing lead to another and finally I reached Voodoo. Voodoo, to me made sense, because it teaches the gods are not gods, but rather a community of spirits, but not only that, it taught that ALL gods from ALL religions are valid, all are real, and all have a purpose, and if gods from another religion were talking to you, than go ahead and follow them as well. There was no demands to stick to anyone god and all god were accepted, because of the simple fact that gods are something completely different than what I had always thought they were. Farther, the gods on this planet are only for us, and any life on other planets has their own set of gods just for them. This just felt so right, and it was like at long last I was in the right place.

Of course it didn't answer the question of "who created god" but than it does tell the story of Damballa who created life here, and explains that he in turn was created by a more distant god, and that was the first time I had found a creation story which fit my way of thinking, that god had to have been created. I had to shift my way of thinking about god, and suddenly I realized, god wasn't one "all powerful", but rather one of many "more powerful" and that each god has strengths and weaknesses.

Well, once Voodoo taught me this stuff, than I realized, heck, I don't need a church or a religion to follow, because I am free to tap into to any god from any religion, because all of them are there to help all of us humans and it's just arrogant to say I'm only going to follow (or be friends with?) only one god or set of gods. All I can say is, since I changed my way of thinking, life has been so much easier and far less stressful than it used to be.



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